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30 September 2009
今天，我刚读完了一篇在名叫《真爱的力量》里的一篇短文《友谊与爱情》。
当我读完时，不知道为什么会让我想起三个男生（甲，乙，丙）。 我在想，我与他们之间到底是友谊还是爱情呢？甲让我有一种大哥哥的感觉，但又有一种想要每天见到他，和他谈心事的想法。在与他分手的那个夜晚里，我什么感觉都没有。隔天又以“夺命连环call”来缠着他，要她给我个理由为何要分手。结果，什么答案都没有。但当时我很伤心也很失望。想着他之前对我的呵护与珍惜。。。这是友谊吗？还是爱情呢？
那乙呢？如果我是爱他的话，为什么我的伤心之维持的一天，接下来的几天只是担心与好怕呢？害怕见到他不知如何是好，以为是我提出分手的。害怕听到她的声音，受到他的简讯。。。我知道他是非常得爱我。有时为了怕自己做了错事惹我生气就以自己的拳头向墙壁猛捶。。。买东西问我喜欢哪一个就买哪个，买了之后才告诉我他的想法。就是因为以上的那一些理由让我忍无可忍而提出分手的。
丙嘛。。。我非常地确定那是我单方面的喜欢他。。。
嗨。。。我真的是不知道如何是好啊！是否有人能告诉我呀？？我真的是好烦哪。。。！！！！
I Draw @ 9:31 PM
26 September 2009
today, i went to haiinn 4 lantern festival. this year mumm n dad cannot go as they are still having their "honey moon" loh. haha... but then, xian jie went there also althiugh she was super late, she still can participate in the lucky draw loh. xian jie is staying overnite todae. we will b going to munerra's place tml to celebrate hari raya. hmm... wad to wear tml leh...?
in the morning, uncle b drive me to work. we packed the goods for export. it was tough! we used 19 boxes to packed up everything and it took us 6hrs to finish up the whole thing! we finished at 3pm. then he went makan left me in the office to finish up the packing list. after finishing the list, i printed out, put in his office, took his keys, close the shop then dashed to the canteen to give him the keys. after tt, i rushed home.
in the morning, uncle b drive me to work. we packed the goods for export. it was tough! we used 19 boxes to packed up everything and it took us 6hrs to finish up the whole thing! we finished at 3pm. then he went makan left me in the office to finish up the packing list. after finishing the list, i printed out, put in his office, took his keys, close the shop then dashed to the canteen to give him the keys. after tt, i rushed home.
I Draw @ 10:00 PM
25 September 2009
yesterday uncle b told mii that he will b at my hse to collect things at nite in the end he never come and said tt he will be at my hse 7am in the morning. thus, i specially wake up at 6.30am to so wad ever mum told mii to do as dad and she will be at malaysia till sunday, and also to wait for uncle b. in the end, auntie b called my h/p and said that uncle b will not be coming. he will collect them in the office on saturday. i was so super angry with him loh. he every time like tt. want to call me call personally lah! wad for ask others to help him call? 1 call of less then 10min very expensive izzit? if afraid h/p bill high then use home phone loh. dun think he need to go out so early loh. he gt car rite?!
anyway, u noe wad? yesterday ite mr b called me! heehee i m so happy by thinking of this. he never had called mii. he always sms me only loh. hax. he called mii as he was very boring in the army camp. he said tt the camp that he is in now for training 4 one wk is very sian nang one loh. can even eat duck rice, chicken rice... better then the wan he was suppose to go. that was lousy. cannot even bring sweets in loh. the food down there is also nt delicious... haha.
hmm... mum n dad will nt be home this weekend. wad to buy for dinner leh? tml dun need to think for wad to eat as mii n sis will be at HIT for lantern festival. there will be food. but then, who will be coming with mii leh? this year's celebration will sure be very boring for mii. cos even bijin will nt b there tml. she gt a wedding dinner to attend to. so gd. haix...
anyway, u noe wad? yesterday ite mr b called me! heehee i m so happy by thinking of this. he never had called mii. he always sms me only loh. hax. he called mii as he was very boring in the army camp. he said tt the camp that he is in now for training 4 one wk is very sian nang one loh. can even eat duck rice, chicken rice... better then the wan he was suppose to go. that was lousy. cannot even bring sweets in loh. the food down there is also nt delicious... haha.
hmm... mum n dad will nt be home this weekend. wad to buy for dinner leh? tml dun need to think for wad to eat as mii n sis will be at HIT for lantern festival. there will be food. but then, who will be coming with mii leh? this year's celebration will sure be very boring for mii. cos even bijin will nt b there tml. she gt a wedding dinner to attend to. so gd. haix...
I Draw @ 10:23 AM
22 September 2009
yeah... juz another 4 more weeks to go b4 i go to work at HIT. but then, although it is now the 1st dae of the 4wks, i already feel super sian. dunnoe wad to do with this kind of emotions leh. like 2dae, theres so many things to sent to my boss but the stupid delivery gal dun wan to come to the office sia... feels like killing her sia... really hate the pple in the work place loh. ERRRRRRR...!!! sometimes really feel like act sick then dun go wrk. but sick still need to go c doctor to have the stupid MC which will have to pay loh... haix... now, i really feel like going home n slp, dun want to think abt the wrk... ...
I Draw @ 11:50 AM
19 September 2009
Hmm... ever since I start to wrk, i m always feeling so sian as if there is nt going to have any more tomorrow especially after i broke with him. i feel tt i had already forgot wad is it like to be surrounded wth the STM family. the STM family dun have a family outing for months liao loh... actually, i feel tt our distance is floating further and further. except my xian jie. we at least will meet at lot one when she come cck 4 her tution. but then still nt as close as b4. remember tt when we r at sch, the STM family are like always togather. haix... now even cannot meet each other to celebrate birthdays loh... haix... i really wish tt we r still studying so tt we can still continue playing, have fun togather, help each other to "find" bf... ... ... ... :(
I Draw @ 7:23 PM